Is anyone else a bit shocked with the fact that 2009 is already here? 2008 flew by so incredibly quickly! What an amazing year it was. So many exciting changes and incredibly memorable, life changing, events. Becoming a Mrs. was without a doubt the highlight of this past year. In four short months we will celebrate our FIRST anniversary! Sadly we won't be able to spend it together. It will be special none the less I am sure.
I am excited to see what 2009 brings, there are SO many exciting opportunities both work and non-work related. I decided that this year I was actually, for the first time, going to make a New Years Resolution. Something I find very silly typically but this year it actually feels right. My goal for this year is not so much a New Year resolution it is a New "LIFE" resolution. It is to work on my relationship with The Lord. I struggle with questioning of Him and the reasons why things happen the way they do. I also struggle because I sometimes feel that I, very foolishly, know what is TRULY best for me. I need to learn to accept and embrace. It is hard for me to feel worthy of unconditional love at times and I think opening myself up to that will better me not only as an individual but as a wife, a friend, a daughter, a sister and most importantly a child of God. I hunger for the improvement in our relationship and am more than ready to do the work!
In other Ham family news, Ben is spending the next month-ish down in Georgia for Jump Master school. He arrived there yesterday and begins classes tomorrow. He has been studying like champ and is going to do fantastic, I am sure! I am a bit saddened that we are missing out on block-leave as it happens to run during his training. I am excited for time off this summer though, we are thinking about possibly treating ourselves to an Alaskan Cruise! Our time together this last year has felt limited and having a week to be just us would be refreshing and much needed.
I am filling my time with work, a bit of a headache as of late but given the state of the economy I feel blessed to be employed! I am planning to start training classes with Duke in February. He is such a smart dog and oh so sweet but he fails to realize just how big and strong he is! He practically pulled my arm out of its socket the other day. I can't believe he is 7 months old and weighs in at an impressive 78lbs. I am looking into my options for school right now but so much depends on re-enlistment stuff. I am mapping out plans given the two situations that seem most probable right now and am fully excited about both.
After years, literally, of debating what path is right for me I feel that I am being called to education, particularly with elementary aged children. How ironic that I originally started with that goal. I feel that I am so prepared to finish school now. I hunger for it and I know that I am going to kick some major booty when I get going.
I am off to walk the dog in the freezing cold and then start some dinner. I hope this year is off to a great start for everyone!
